~ My Blue Moon ~

"And I wonder if I ever crossed your mind, cuz for me it happens all the time."

                                                                 Need you now- Lady Antebellum.

9 months, the name sure sounds long but in reality, it happened so fast like a bullet train. Just as if it's a moment ago, when I first entered Sunway's Ausmat alone while most of my secondary school mates were enrolled either in Sunway's FIA or Taylor's. However, during these duration of time, I met a lot of people who are utmost AMAZING friends that anyone can ask for.. like seriously. :) Met the kindest, friendliest, wackiest, craziest, sweetest, funniest, loudest, coolest, goofiest, hyper-iest people that I've ever seen. And yes, people who are born both beautiful inside-out, who's presence truly left a deep mark in my life. Aaahhh~~ How I miss you guys!! ♥

Throughout the times in Ausmat..

I did the silliest thing as a student when I first shaded my answers at the name area of my EE1 Accounting test paper. (NO WONDER, there's no place to write my name.. heheh :P)

I kept on offering sweets to Sheik during the Puasa season, forgetting that he is an Indian-Muslim. Oops!

I lost my T1-89 Calculator~~ There goes my RM 350.00. T.T

I had to wear heels with plasters on my feet for presentation purposes and it hurt soooo much that there are times when I really felt like pulling them off, fling them away and watch them fall from the 4th floor. (If you love your girlfriend, never force her to wear them.. unless she enjoys it. And if she wears them for you, appreciate it kay?)

I became too emotional during my Moral Studies presentation on Children Discrimination, broke down and screwed up the information. Great embarrassment but we managed to score 21.25% out of 25% for it. :)

I got myself a lovely pet sister upon knowing that she has always wanted a sister for herself due to the reason that she is the only child in her family. Love her a lot.. Oh, and she's a 14 years old person who's doing the same course as us, the 18 years old by the way. :) You have absolutely no idea how proud am I of her.. She's a great girl.

I tried hard to break free from my shell, doing things that I've never done before. I finally get involved in society-based clubs, organizations and events that I've always hoped to do.. all of these to find myself.

And I'm glad that I did.. :)

So, all in all, last year was indeed a year filled with events made out of:

                   pleasant surprises..

                                       life-transforming experiences...

and

                                                         heartwarming memories....

P.s.: I'll miss you. :)

Sometimes, there is a point in your life whereby you will meet a whole new group of people in which, you became so closely connected with. Even though the times that we spent together isn't long, however, it is in that short period of time, that bond is created.. by fate.

To be able to gather at one place from a total of five countries across the borders of the seas;

Considering that successful candidates' application have to go through multiple screenings and 'special' connections..

Fate.

To be able to warm up easily with each other's presence;
Though there are some differences in terms of cultures, personal preferences and concepts..

Fate.

To be able to stick together through thick and thin;
With mutual collaboration, care, trust, understanding, acceptance and love..

Fate.

8th to 28th December, the date that our blue moon was found. :)

♥ 2011 Overseas Youth Hakka Culture Camp ♥

The famous 'Zzzzs' pose. :)

Before I go spilling my heart out, there's one thing that I do not want to neglect because without him, I'll never be able to participate in this year's camp. Should my application fail, and should I succeed in 2012's application instead, the people that I've met and memories that I've gained would had been very different.. And I'm very grateful that I've them all last year. I found out that I was the last candidate, among the 16 Malaysians, according to the man in charge (ain't sure if it's true or not) but according to him, my cousin kept giving him phone calls to check if my name is in the list.. So touched.. Thank you WUI TENG! :D A million thanks to both of my Tzu Chi shigus (Cheng Gee shigu and Siew Bee shigu) who gave their best in ensuring my recommendation letter is well written. Same goes to my parents who made this trip possible.
感恩！！

And so..

There're a total of 16 of us from Malaysia. Apa khabar? :)

All 16 of us gathered and stayed at a hotel nearby KLIA a night before the camp so that non of us will be late for the flight the following day. As we all know, passengers aren't allowed to board the plane with any liquid more than a 100ml in hand and we have to either finish or drop them in the bin provided. Surprisingly although there were a few officers eyeing on us as we walk through the screening machine one by one and I was holding my transparent water bottle right in front of me, they kind of allowed me to cross just like that. O.o?!

Anyway, upon arriving at Taiwan, we gathered at this hotel to meet with the rest of the campers and oh my gawd.. how I watched in disbelief and refrained hard from laughing the moment I saw the guys sitting RIGHT IN THE MIDDLE of the corridor playing POKER CARDS?!?! Wow.. An unexpected sight. *Grins* Okay, I found my room and the first foreign friend I talked to was Anna Ju, standing right beside the room door with a huge beam saying "Omg.. Finally! The rest had their roommates arriving almost completely and I was so anxious!" Something like that, and yes, I was kind of happy seeing her because she seems to be a very friendly person in which, she is. :) So, my first roommates were Taiwanese who either migrated or furthered their studies to Australia; the sunshine girl: Anna, Erica: who has a very warm demeanor, and Daphne: someone who's generous with her smiles. Yes, there's still some awkward moments and we didn't chat much on the first night but yeah, probably because it was a pretty tiring day.

Moving on to group division, and I was placed in Group 4 with:

'茶叶'
- a.k.a. 'tea leaf', who is the 'supervisor' for G4 who has been diligently taking care of our needs, enquiries etc.

Parker
- Our young group leader who kept disappearing to G5 at times when we need him BUT he will definitely roll back later on and run his duty as a pretty responsible leader.

- Famous for this 'lips-pout-ing' icon, the 'shhhhh~~' with one finger over the lips sign and yes, the 'passing-under-table' game that only the G4 would play every time we have our meals.

Sophie
- Miss Charismatic and also the 开心果 of G4. Thank you darling, for the tremendous effort and spirit you managed to bring out from us within.

- A very thoughtful and fun person to talk to.

Amy
- Lovely, caring, and motherly-like lady who helped and guided most of us with the laundry and stuff.

- According to the survey done by the guys, she's said as one of the most beautiful girl in the camp in which.. I truly agree because no doubt, she has a very good heart.
- Her hawt 'M' dance during the X'mas night? :)

Cindy
- Absolutely adorable, alert and smart girl who has just completed her SPM and I've confidence that she'll do well in her studies.
- Has been my Bus 2 partner throughout the entire trip and we've been watching the City Hunter drama,downloaded into her Ipad with the screaming, and getting heartbroken over Lee Min Ho with Sophie.

Annie
- The 'mother' of G4 who knows the difficulty in earning money so she's very careful with her spendings in Taiwan.

- Her voice; absolutely loud, clear and you can hear her from afar.. Teehee.. She's always making sure we're eating the right food, spending right, safe and ooohhh, her sweet motherly advices.

Ray
- A very kind and funny guy who plays with his facial expression at all times even in photographs!
- Nicknamed '洗手哥'.. lol~~

Kk
- For the first week, he's just too quiet and I was trying so hard to make him talk. But later on, found out that he's a good person in side who's always there to offer help to those in need.

- He's been so kind in agreeing to become my 'sweets delivery messenger' to my 'Owner', Jackie because it's so hard to talk to him and care for him without exposing my identity as his 'Angel' as I'm not close to him.

Peir2
- A very quiet guy who can be really cute at times. :)

- Eats really less.. like just a few spoon of rice and a few pieces of food bits? Hmmm??

"V♥蛋!" :D 

Among the small activities conducted at the camp was to select a local Taiwanese young adult student as our extra group leader (Sprite) who will be running around with us for 3 days straight. And it was the G4 girls who made the quick 'browsing' and decision based on urm.. I believe it's his looks? *laughs* I can still clearly remember how Annie stood behind him and was asking "这个好吗？我们选这个ok?" while we were like.. "yes yes! 我们要这个！！Annie, 快快站在他的后面！抓住他, 不要给别人抢走他！！", at the same time happily thinking "yes! We got the best looking one!" lol..

However, sad to say that although we lost in ALL of the group challenges BUT we are obviously the most close-kneeted, loudest, happiest, and family-like out of the 5 teams. :)
蛋蛋家族！！Hiyaaaahhhh~~

Our dear Sprite*, the one in orange and brown jacket. :)

得到惩罚的样子.. :P

Campers also get to experience the taste of living the local Taiwanese lifestyles through the homestay program and oh my, my homeparents' house was so well kept and huge. What I liked best is the fact that they actually plowed this massive land behind their house themselves; growing lettuces, veggies and fruits along the way.. not forgetting the huge fish pond. Home ma and home pa treated us like their own children, home pa was the chef of the house and they stuffed us with homemade delicacies after delicacies. What's more? Upon knowing that I was down with flu, home ma immediately rushed into the kitchen and walked out with a pot of steaming hot starfruit soup which made me felt so much better. On the very first day, she even greeted us with lovely scarfs, bought from different places which were then given to us to help us cope with the cold weather. Before we leave, she even packed herbal candies, caramel and milk candies as well as vegetarian meat for us to bring back home. Omg.. Can you just feeeeeeeeeeeeeel the love? :)

Wearing the scarfs given by home ma.. Miss them so much! :(

Home ma's and home pa's son. :)

At the last week of camp, we had the campfire night followed by the Indigenous Taiwanese fire dancing ceremony in which was a good eye opener for me because in Malaysia, usually, only the scouts have them. The 'first dance' came next and I remembered Li Hong was super happy because she got him* as her dance partner. Lucky girl. Haha.. Basically, all G3 and G4 members memorized this dance by heart as we've been practicing them for our group combination performance. Peace! :D Right after that, we all had papers celo-taped behind our back and were released to convey whatever messages we wished to say to friends who's image first came into our mind, one after another.. Lighted candles and a huge 'Kongming Deng' a.k.a. Chinese sky lantern was then released into the dark night, glowing with all it's might as it reach for the dark sky (sky lanterns are just so beautiful to watch).. which officially marking the closing ceremony of the campfire night.

I made lots of wishes as it floats off..

*Muuaahhhhh*

On the night of X'mas eve, a barbeque party was held and the moment I heard that beers will be provided, the very first thing that stroked my mind was "Uhh uhh.. There goes the guys!!" :) Seriously, most of them were surprisingly strong alcohol drinkers and their supplies of 'gao liangs' seems to be endless where else the beers~~ pure mineral water? OMG! So scary!

xD

But yeah, some of them got drunk in he end and had to leave early while the rest were still standing strong with a little wobbly here and there. Ha-hah. xD Unfortunately, a few of our dear friends were sent to the hospital halfway through the party as they were down with high fever.. or 'flu'. But I was kind of relieved to see them back the next day. Deep inside, I was grateful that Yee Ling, the camper representative from M'sia also known as 'Vitamin jie jie' has been diligently distributed vitamin B+ and C's to the M'sian every day. 谢谢你！:) ♥

Last but not least, this camp ended with a truly economic-organized farewell party. All I remembered was pizzas and soft drinks? Eheheh.. Anyway, everyone looked stunning that night and although it's the last night for us all but at least, I get to take photos with everyone, person by person at the moment that they all looked at their best in the camp.. :) I think the highlight of the event was the 'confession stage' whereby guys either got pulled or pushed up onto the stage to.. urm.. do whatever confession they wished to do or.. by force? Lol.. Henry was very brave that night and I think every single person in the camp knew he ADORES Annie. Hehe.. But Annie kind of disappeared into the washroom for a moment but it's okay.. we all WAITED for her to come back. He did his confession and I was like "Oh-my-gawd.. That's so sweet! :D" and it is! The exciting part came when whoosh~ he gave her a peck the moment she was halfway turning to leave the stage which of course, made the crowd went high?! *laughs* Too bad that I think nobody managed to take photos of them or else, it would be a good memory souvenir for both of them to keep I guess? :) Urm.. there's also 'Onion' who did for 'E', 'Ah L' for 'M', 茶叶 for 'YL'.. and uhh uhhh.. I was startled when my name was called by 'JJ' who was then standing beside 'E' on the stage. Then, 'Ah L' came running over to drag me to the front.. OMG?! I was shocked because.. because.. I was also guessing who's the girl while looking around to see which girl might be overreacting. I didn't know how to react and I remembered I was standing quite a distance away beside 'E' and they were like asking me to stand closer. Awkwardness.. BUT! What he did was kind of sweet to thank me politely so yeah..  but what's with the 'peace!' sign in the photo? Hmm.. not that embarrassing after all I guess? :) Definitely something memorable to remember after this camp. Thank you 'E'. :)

Having to leave the very next morning at about 5.30am, it was very touching to see our dear Australian friends waiting at the lobby to send us off (the M'sian campers have to leave a day earlier). My tears started flowing like nobody's business when I hugged Mel goodbye.. Mixed feelings came rolling and I 真的很不涩的 them all, giving everyone hugs, waving them goodbye from the bus, weeping silently with Jayson, sitting right next to me kept on asking me to stop crying while I can clearly see the tears in his eyes too.. all these still stays fresh in my mind. We arrived at KLIA at noon and my mum gave me a call saying there's massive traffic jam due to road block so I had to board the Express line (Monorail) and then convert to the LRT (Light Rail Transit) to come back home myself. I'm kind of glad my luggage aren't huge tho.. just the right size at unpredictable circumstance. On the journey back home, images after images of the campers filled my thoughts and I didn't realize I was crying until I saw my reflections in the window. Ahhhh~~ so ugly, better wipe them off before someone else sees it. Heh.

So yeah, basically they were a lot more interesting activities that we did throughout the camp from DIY-ing paper fans, salty veggies, traditional lion head and orange jam-cum-cordials, rock climbing, flying fox, mountain climbing, cycling around the peaceful Hakka village, sharing Taiwan's street snacks at the famous 'ye shi', learning the Hakka dance, lots of singings and doing performances and yes, most importantly getting to learn this unique language, while meeting the wonderful Hakka singers and teachers. Truly, this camp had brought me many beautiful and unforgettable experiences..

I miss you all soooooooooooooo much! :)

This year..
Is the year of the ultimate dragon.. *rawr*
A..
     New...
              Year....
                      Has....
                            Come..... *drums rolling*

Okay okay, I've obviously just failed creating a suspense atmosphere. Anyway, here's my resolutions for year 2012. :)
♥♥♥
1) Hardcore effort in my studies. Tv time reduce to at most only 2 hours per day.. I still want to watch
    my Korean dramassssssss! :)
2) No matter how busy I'll get this year, my family must not be neglected. :)
    Families are my backbones.
    Studies, careers and religion are my mind.
    My other half is my heart.
    Friends are my spirits.
    So, all of these comes to the conclusion; Take good care of your 'body'! :D
3) To fill Tzu Chi into any free slots in my schedule, making time for it. :)
4) Learn Mandarin!! *Semangat semangat* After the camp, I found out that it is really hard to survive in a Chinese language-based country if you don't have a good foundation, rather troublesome at times.

So, basically these are the few main ones.. There will definitely be more to add in as I walk through 2012.

May everything that YOU do turns out smoothly this year.. *prays* :)

~ Thought of the Day 8 ~


Now, shall we spend some time recalling to ourselves? :)


When was it, the last time you hug someone?

Someone who needs it..

            

                 Someone who appreciates it...

             

Or even..

                             Someone who you loves dearly and means a lot to

                             you....

                        

Because a hug.. regardless you're big or small can bring changes, influence people around you positively and even bring miracles. :)

♥

~Hugs~

~ When Silence Is the Loudest ~

Helloooooooooooo.. :)

It has been quite a long time (haha.. yes, I do realize) and I'm actually having doubt if I should be blogging here right now since I should be doing revision instead as WACE Examination is real soon. But there must be a reason why I am here now staring at the laptop with my fingers dancing on the keyboard; giving myself chances one after another to express my thoughts and inner self.. because sometimes, you just need to give yourself some personal space to expand the horizons in you in a way that you will feel absolutely comfortable with. :)

We are the one who choose how to live every second, every day and every moment of our life. :)

Oh yes, in case you're wondering how was my campus life is like so far.. all I can say it was a great experience. Really.. but I'll keep the descriptions to the end when Ausmat ends. I have to admit that my Mock results weren't satisfying, but I certainly do not see the reason why I should feel embarrassed about it and worst, let it further pull down the confidence level in me. After all, there's no one to blame.. So, might as well just still see things from another view, accept it with a smile and take it as a stronger motivating factor. (Yun, go go Go!!) And most importantly, stay optimistic + happy. :)

:)

Humans are created to solve problems but sometimes not all problems can be solved by taking dominant actions. In certain situations, being recessive might appeared as the best solutions after all.

Many times we come across situations whereby we just don't know what to do, how to react and go completely blank except to witness the scenario and feel so helpless. The humanity and kind side of us shines from within when we try to make things better by saying comforting words paired with solutions. But the fact is, sometimes what people want is is not the solutions itself, they need a place they could trust to spill their hearts out. The solutions will emerge naturally after they learn how to accept the situation, solutions that transform, adjust and suits itself according to the person's internal being. Never offer solutions unless being asked to. Each of us is unique in our own different ways.. we have different experiences, needs and preferences no matter how similar we appeared to be like.

Now, let's define ego.

The belief that one is more important, clever and interesting etc. than other people.

How about an ego person?

An ego person is someone who appeared to have a very strong personality on the outside, difficult to deal with and the last person you ever want to mess with. Very unpredictable and very often makes you wonder how can a person ever be this complicated.

Agree? This is what most of us would interpret and very few of us would have the patience to endure, approach and see things from an ego person's side. However, many do not know that in fact, an ego person is actually someone who needs sincere care a lot because he is a very lonely person inside and hence, takes achievements as his closest friends and attentions as pleasure sources.

Just like the dry ice, it takes so much longer time compared to an ordinary ice to melt. But as long as you do not give up trying, you will be able to melt the coldness off any individual.. pieces by pieces.. part by part.. Nobody is born bad, we are all born with a good heart as clear as the mirror I would say. But as we grow up, it got clouded up with the obstacles we faced in life, turning things the way it's not supposed to be. Greed, Ignorance, Doubt, Selfinterest, Pride.. we aren't born with them. We picked them up along the way to protect ourselves. But is it really necessary?


So.. why do I sounds so sure of it?

:)

Oh.. I don't know, all I know my sister never gave up on me and although there were uncountable times when she thought she couldn't make it, yet, she still held on tightly onto my hands while I frantically 'shaked' hers off. She did not let not let go. She never did. She took about 15 years.. Yes, after 15 goods years to finally see and understand things from my view, actions and behaviour, she admitted. And it was that strong determination of her that melted the ego off me. The question is, how did she do it? By just listening and I chose to do the best changes for myself and my life.

Humans are good problem solver, but sometimes we do not want them to solve anything, we just want them to listen.

Thank you for letting me know that there are someone who cares and I am never alone. :)

This life changing experience is just one small example and I am very grateful to have her but how about those out there who are still living their life in isolation, shutting their hearts against anyone that crosses their path and having such misconception of "why do you want to care?"? I am not referring this to only the ego group of people, but also those who are deeply hurt by grief, loss or even have no one to turn to when they're at their lowest. Those who are the prisoners of great disappointment and chained with manacles of confidence lost in life. Those who escaped the grasp of natural disasters..and images of it haunt their mind every night, every moment they shut their eyes and weep silently in the dark.  We need to let them know that patches in life can still be sewn together with the needles of great love and thread of compassion by the hands of warmth and comfort.. And YOU can be apart of transforming this beautiful miracles into reality too. Get involved in any social or volunteering or charity activities whenever you can and you will witness how your life will never be the same ever again. For the better, of course.. Trust me, you will. :)

To all the angels out there who have been very supportive.. Thank you and..

Went to watch two movies for the last 2 weeks:

-Watched with siblings and cousins-

Super hilarious, pretty silly and I assure you that you'll feel as if you got 'bombed' over and over again here and there. Over all, it is a good movie to watch if you want a great laugh.. provided that you are someone who is fine with lame scenes as some people may find it very annoying. :)

-Watched with my dear friend, Li Jian :)-

Very exciting but honestly, I can't help laughing when I saw how much 'digital animation' touch is implied in this movie making most action scenes looked really 'fake'. Like seriously.. But, I have to say it is still a pretty enjoyable movie and yes, VERY touching too. :) *Shred tears*

I doubt if anyone of you have ever seen such drinking water bottle brand:

Oh yes, it clearly got the message through. I can't help but to laugh every time I want to take a sip. I've tried asking my mum and surprisingly she said she has absolutely no idea where does this bottle came from. Hmm?? :)

Below is extracted from "The World of Tzu Chi, July 2011, 22nd edition magazine:

"It is not very difficult to say the right thing at the right time but very difficult indeed to avoid saying the wrong thing at the wrong time. Wise man always think before they speak, and they never say anything on impulse." Sometimes we may unwittingly praise someone excessively or engage in insincere talk, thus leading us to commit one of the four types of harmful speech. There are also times when we inadvertently fall into the trap of "Not seeing our own faults, but keep talking about the faults of others." This is divisive-abusive speech. At times, in the heat of the moment, we pass sarcastic or derogatory remarks at upset people around us.. and even those we care without being aware.

The four types of harmful speech:
1) Divisive speech

    2) Abusive speech

       3) Slander/ Lies

           4) Gossip/ Flattery/ Idle chatter

The three main rule of speech:
1) If you know something which is harmful and false, don't say it.

    2) If you know something which is beneficial but false, don't say it.

         3) If you know something that is beneficial and true, then say it at the right time to the right person.

"Is it not prudent to leave nothing unsaid, but there are certain things best left unsaid."

                                                                        -Zen Master Fa-Yen, Sung Dynasty.

Let's reflect these to ourselves.. Are we actually saying the right thing? :)

To talk is better than to talk more; talking in a nice way is much better and to talk skillfully is the best.

To chatter is easy but to carry on a conversation effectively is an art,

It requires skills and wit.

Silence is golden when there is nothing to say,

And actually, well-timed silence is more eloquent than speech.

:) I suddenly feel like saying this.. To all my quiet friends out there, just want to let you know that I always believe that quiet people are those who are great listeners. So, thank you for being such a great friend in need. I really appreciate you guys.. although you can be pretty quiet at times.. It's okay, let me do the talking. *hehe* But one thing that I can say that if you ever need someone to talk to, I'll be more than glad to be that friend, like how you have always been there for me when I need a friend. :)

These are some snapshots taken during the 3 days Tzu Chi camp in Malacca. Enjoy. :)

Where as, these are taken during the recent Tzu Ching 15th Anniversary in SJK(C)Yuk Chai. :)

This may sounds childish but I've always wish to touch the rainbow when I was younger, in which I am never able to do.. Obviously. :)

~Thoughts of the Day 7~

When I was younger, my mum raised my siblings and I in such way that we must never fight back (不能动手动脚) during any conflicts although we may be right. At first I didn't get what was she trying to do back then as I was really still raw in the mind and it is indeed very hard to endure when we got blames and scoldings in things that we never do.. The feeling you get when your cousins were very mischievous, created a lot of troubles and yet all they need to do is to cry when you try to tell them off. We were all about the same age back then and it was indeed very torturing to get scoldings in front of them while watching them smiling behind mum's back. However, at the end of the day, she would sit my siblings and I on the floor and explained why would she react that way.. It was to build great tolerance within us, in terms of speech and behaviour. And I truly appreciate what she has been trying to do for us. :) Recently she read an article in the newspaper as shared it with me when I was helping her out in the kitchen. We should never judge a person although he may be wrong because first of all, we have no right to do that. Same goes to telling and insisting him what he should do because all of us are raised up in a different way and go through distinct past experiences. So, what might appeared to be an insult or mistakes to us might be perfectly normal to another person's norm, or culture beliefs. There are absolutely no wrong or right in certain issues.. So, we should all really avoid doing judgement on other people and start to accept them and their ways of doing things if it does not involves serious crimes. Nobody is perfect, so it is absolutely normal if people make small mistakes. 我们可以看摊时不可以说。最多都是能给义建但不能跟他说什么是一定要做还是不能做的事情因为每一个人有不同的想法。

 ♥

~Hugs~

~Meal Menu~

Back to my passion in blogging, in which I have abandoned for almost a month-long period due to Ausmat EE2. Welcome back Cai Yun! ♥ :)

Shall start with the Appetizer: World Vision Malaysia- 30 Hour Famine 2011.


Up to today, I can't help but to admit that fasting for 30 hours wasn't easy.. This was my first time going for this event and for the first 13 hours, I was already starting to wonder why am I doing here in the hall of Taylors' Lakeside Campus 'fishing' my empty tummy with the thoughts of my mum's home made cookings. Omg.. But thank gawd there's the night time so I can forget my hunger for at least 8 hours while asleep. :) The least 'torturing' moment was to anticipate for the last 4 hours countdown at the Bukit Jalil Stadium and although I can feel my tummy screaming but deep inside, I know I'm not the only one who felt this way. As a matter of in fact, there are thousands of youth from all around the country who are here with me today, at this very moment, who put up their most supportive smile and patiently waiting for the countdown of the last 5 seconds. Sometimes, I can really be amazed with the power of human determination. So brimming full with enthusiasm, endurance, and empowerment. 3 cheers for all! :D

Here are some snapshots taken during the event:

(Jo Yi and I. Oh no.. wait.. is that guy trying to be in the picture too? Oops..:p)

(Catch the lights within my big red "fingers" :D)

(Seems more like a live concert than a famine event)

Next on the menu is the Main Course: "_ _ _ _ _ _ _"


7 spaces in total.. Meant to be figured out.. And the first alphabet is the 'W'.. I'll give you one more clue. It is the desire that everyone will have in sight, speech, and actions, particularly in those which bring benefits and the sense of satisfaction. Sounds familiar? :)
Yes, winning is the word. Winning holds a complicated meaning because it can appear in any form, at anywhere and at any time whether it is through:

Sight: Watching your favourite football team playing in the FIFA World Cup match and screaming with every time they score a goal.
Speech: Having debates with your fellow friends on whether who's wrong and who's right.
or even
Action: Competing to score the best exam results among your friends.

In fact, it has also been a very important component in our lives because it is indeed the factor that keeps us pushing and breaking boundaries apart. No doubt, winning is a very pleasant feeling to go through because in some cases..

it makes you feel good about yourself especially when you had put all your heart and effort in doing something.
          it makes you feel recognized by your peers.
                     it gives you the sense of achievement to be able to make the
                     best out of your life not only for your parents but also for
                     yourself.
And the best of all,
                                it gives you the confidence to move on. :)

But sadly, winning is never easy.. It is like a war whereby either you gain or lose but.. back to reality, do you really gain fully when you win? We're all born differently so each of us have different thoughts and opinions. So, nobody is really right nor wrong in expressing an argument and that is also the reason why we are all equally special. :) I got a question..
How do you personally define "winning"? :)
For me, I think that there are two types of "winning"; materialism and spiritualism. As materiality is more dominant or perhaps more obvious than the other one, we tend to forgo spirituality because it is something that we keep inside. Unlike materiality which other people can see and we, ourselves can touch. :) But sometimes.. losing doesn't mean that you lose anything but rather gain something from it.. Yes, I mean who wouldn't feel disappointed when our hard effort didn't turn out well like what we expected it to be because we really spend a lot of time in it? But the truth is.. although we might not gain materially but we sure did gain spiritually. It's the experience we have gone through and gained that is worth so much more simply because..

It is learning from losing that made us into who we are today.
Where else winning shows that we grow from our mistakes.

Most of us are are able to win materially but not many could win spiritually as arrogance, ignorance, anger, doubt, pride, greed and the feeling of fear to lose will usually follow close as a 'souvenier' behind winning. So I guess probably this is the reason of why people will tend to feel scared when they achieved something great because it is not easy to get into the position they have today and for the reason they might lose it in the next moment. And it shows when they hesitate to share with others..
But.. we should feel grateful with what we have achieved today and even take the initiative to reach out sincerely to those who approached us for guidance. Why?
Think of the kind-hearted angels who have been there for you when you need help the most, untiying your doubts and request nothing in exchange. If they can sacrifice their time for you and pause whatever they are doing that very moment for you,why can't you do the same for others too? Make sense doesn't it? :)
And.. for those who asked for your help, it shows that you are among the few in the list that would appear in their mind the moment they need assistance the most. All of these and simply because they laid their hope, trust and faith deep in you. Having a mindset that you are someone who is willing to help them. How nice it that? :)

Like a traveler who lose his money slowly by slowly because he didn't bother to stop and mend the hole in his pocket with the urge to arrive at his destination fast.

So for me.. I really think that sometimes, winning is not everything.. especially when we have to be very aware and careful not to lose a part of us bits by bits while walking in the long journey of learning. There is no competitor really.. only one, which yourself. And before you win anything, you need to win yourself; the ability to control your thoughts in mind.

A candle loses nothing by lighting another candle.

Give sincerely,
            Love truly.
Apologize sincerly,
            Forgive truly.
Let go of the ugly past,
            Look into the beautiful future.
Remember those who helped,
           Forget who you helped.
Be grateful with what you have,
           And never regret anything that made you smile. :)


Bringing out the Side Dish: Hear my voice in silence.

I'm not the girl with the nicest smile.
I'm not the girl with the smartest brain.
Nor the girl with the most charasmatic attitude.
But I'm an ordinary girl who is trying to make each and every day of my life counts by doing things that I know what I want, should do and enjoy doing. :)
I want to be the girl that could be there for you when you need support the most.
I want to be the girl whom you can rely on when you are at your weakest.
I want to be the girl who can make your day with my presence.

I want someone who can enlighten me and I enlighten you too so we both can help each other and grow together..

Which is not easy to find.
I'm not searching deeply now but whilst on the process of improving myself for this person which I've not found yet.. I'm keeping my eyes open for everyone because I know that he is somewhere out there. :) Although.. it's quite impossible for me to fall for someone who doesn't appoach me nor understand him well.. Why does love just has to be so hard? But sometimes.. it's not about finding the right type of person or not. He might be the one I'm looking for but it is not necessary the other way around.


Girls.. It's never easy to become a girl but how many guys know that? If only they know how difficult for us to like a guy not because we are fussy but it's the sense of fear to approach that guy in order to talk to him. If only they know how much we want to have a proper chat with them but the fact is.. we all know that girls should never be the one to take the first step because most guys will prefer to be the one who starts it all. We know that no matter how perfectly nice a girl is, if she is the one who does the confession there goes it.. image tarnish. We all know that the best way is to be ourselves, speak to him like how good friends do and only pray for the best. Perhaps this does not apply to all guys, I don't know but one thing for sure.. they do not know that the last thing that we would ever want to know from a guy that we like is; we appeared to be just like any other girls. Honestly, that's the most awful thing we wouldn't want to hear because we really hope to be someone that stands out among the rest of the girls at least in his eyes. Yes, we do feel very pressured especially when he is an all girls' ideal guy adding to the fact that there are so many girls who are after him, so much prettier than us but yet got rejected. So it's quite normal for us to have this "If such pretty girl like her got rejected, how'd about me? It's probably even worse.. Perhaps I'm just not good enough for him" kind of thinking. So I guess there is really nothing much we can do.. :/

Just the right time for Desserts.

When you feel stressed out, have a dessert because that's what you get when you turn the word "STRESSED" around. :) All hard work pays off sweetly. If it doesn't, it simply means that we are not working hard enough. Stay optimistic! :D

 (Pa la pa pa pa~~ I'm lovin'it <3)

I don't know if I'm supposed to list this under the desserts section but there must be a reason why somehow I just feel like saving this for the last.
*Takes a deep breath* Not long ago, I heard that you are not someone whom you appeared to be like and honestly, I felt a little upset and disappointed when others said the similar things as well.. because it was really quite unbelievable to think that such nice person like you are actually a disguise. So, I thought about it for some time.. 

(Are you really like what they said you are?)

I might not be sure if what they said was true but one thing for sure, you are my friend and you still have my trust in you and this trust will not fade based on assumptions. What I know is, you have been a real kind friend to me so far and this impression of you as a nice person will stay unless I see it with my own eyes.. or else it's really unfair for you. Nobody is perfect but as long as we did not bring hurt to anyone else, it's fine. I believe you. However, if what they said were right, I'll never give up on a friend like you because I believe you are still a good person inside. And.. you can prove that to those who misunderstood you, alright? :)

~Thoughts of the Day 7~